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"Whaaaat?! He rejected you?!" Miko said in disbelieve,"I thought he had always liked you!" "Yeah, as a little sister though.." I said. "I told you you had to confess quickly! See what happened! he fell for another girl! You're so unbelievable!" Mio whined. Tears started formed and I sobbed. "I wana go hoooome." I kept mumbling while crying again and again until out homeroom teacher asked me, "Ayumi, are you alright?" I shook my head. "Feeling unwell?" I nodded. "Do you want to go home?" I nodded and looked at the teacher with puppy eyes. "Alright, alright.. Go home and rest, Ayumi. I hope you'll get well soon." Sensei is so concerned. "Thank-you, sensei!" And went home, covering myself with my blanket, without appetite and unable to sleep. Shiro.. Where are you..? My tears kept falling and falling. I waited for no one but Shiro.

"A..Yumi..?" I knew that voice anywhere. The calm voice I have been waiting for. I looked up from the covers and peeked. It really is Shiro. I threw myself off the bed , hugged him and sobbed. "I was rejected! I was rejected! I thought he liked me! I cant believe this.." I whined. "Hush.. It's okay.." Shiro comforted me, patting my head, before saying, "i love you." I froze stiff. I love you..? So he's the one who has been loving me all this time? A big tear dropped from my cheek before he released me and leaned down to kiss me. Wha-What? I was dumbstruck. I still didn't move when he lifted his head to look at me. but only my blush-cells moved. I blushed like crazy. He chuckled and said, "If only I was human. I could stay with you forever. Well, before we die anyway." Touched, I said, "then ask the god. Bring me there. I'll talk it out with him." His eyes widened before saying, "So that means you'll accept me?" I blushed deeper and looked down. "Yeah, it was because I hadn't notice I have been starting to carry a torch for you ever since we met." Then in a second his eyes went sad. "If I bring you to see him, you'll have to die." "Then I hope it won't hurt." I said confidently, looking into his eyes. And he started to panic, but then relaxed alittle. He lifted on hand and tapped my forehead. Then my eyelids became heavy and I was unconscious in a matter of seconds.

I woke up in a small apartment. There was nothing at all. Just wooden floor boards, concrete walls and a wooden sliding door. *door creaking open* I jumped in shock and scrambled to th far corner which was the furthers from the door. "Ayumi.. Are you awake yet..?" Shiro's head poked out from the door and I pounced onto him. "Yep." I smiled. "W-Whoa" He said, a little breathless. I got up from him and sat on the ground, "where are we Shiro?" I asked as I poked my head outside the door. "Where do you think? The place where people had died and not yet confirmed to go to heaven or hell, of course." He replied with a tilted head. So we're going to meet the god . I'm feeling kind of nervous right now. "Can these names of the following report to the God's apartment please, #1, death god no.193560. And #2, Ayumi Maki." A voice suddenly appearing in my head. "Well, that's us. Shall we?" He held out a hand to me after he stood up. Just as I took his hand, there was a flash of light and we were in front of some kind of gold and sliver door. "Do come in." A voice as sweet as honey and as smooth as silk entered my mind. Then the door opened automatically.

Inside the room, a lone man sat in a huge sofa filled with cushions. "Please sit here." The voice said again. "Don't mind of we do." Shiro said. "Shi-Shiro.. I'm kinda uneasy here.." I said uncertainly. "Oh please do not fret young one, we come in peace." The god said with a smile. "Come here and sit as you wish." Shiro held my hand and we walked towards him, bowed, and sat on the sofa. "So, your wish is to be together for eternity am I right, Shiro? Don't mind if I address you with your new name." "I certainly do not mind, God. And yes. That is my wish." That is so formal. Lucky I resisted my laughter. "And would you want that wish too, Ayumi Maki?" "Um.. Yes." I staggered, surprised when he suddenly spoke to me. "If that is so.. Then I shall help you make that wish of yours true. But Ayumi, you have to pay a price." "What is it?" I asked. "In order for you to stay here with Shiro. He will no longer be a death god," I beamed at that one. "And those who have known you would have your life erased from them. Will that be alright?" I frowned at that one. But, "Yes, it is alright. But do you mind if I take one last look of them?" I asked. "Then I shall do something that you would never have to come looking for me to replay the scenes you have spent with them." The god seemed like he was singing. But also more like he's humming. Then, with a sparks of light, 'videos' of everyone I knew started playing, then stopped abruptly before going into my body. "What was that..?" I asked, surprised. "As you have seen, those were the memories of the ones you have known and cherished. So whenever you miss them, just close your eyes and replay the scenes. So shall we carry on with the price?" "Yes, I accept the price." I said confidently. "Very well then.."

With another flash of light, we were in an apartment with many things. When I went into one room, I had known immediately it was mine as everything was th same. The bed, the desk.. everything. "From now on we will be staying here. Will that be alright, Ayumi?" Shiro asked. "Yup." I replied with a smile and kissed him.

So that's the end. I will never ever ever ever forget the ones I have always cherished. Mom.. Dad.. Mio.. Miko.. Ryuu.. so much more.. I'll never forget you guys..

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"Ayumi!" Ryuu called out to me while running to me. "Yeah..?" I replied when he reached me. "I have a friend of mine whose father is an exorcise, maybe he can help you get rid of that death god." He said. I imagined a man with bald head, wearing a beaded necklace and something that resembles a brown dress. "Really? He can help me?" I asked him. Ryuu smiled and said, "why would I lie to you about such things?" Finally.. That death god would be gone and I won't have to die so soon!

[Ryuu's friend's , Musashi , house] "Come on in, Ayumi, Ryuu!" He held the door open for us. "Thanks, Musashi." I smiled while Ryuu just smiled. The house reeks of buddish-ish smells. Then he's father emerged, just as I imagined him wearing. We were told to kneel on some cushions while Musashi's father recites something of some kind of language. Then, he out a piece of paper on a plate. "What's that?" I asked him. "After I burn this, the death god would disappear." He replied with a I-know-it-all smile. He was reciting something again when the death god appeared. "So that was what it was all about. I was feeling kind of uncomfortable." He seemed like he was breathing hard, I almost felt sorry for him. Suddenly, he grabs his chest looking really pained. Then he started losing his balance and fell onto the ground with a thud in front of me. He looked like he really is in terrible pain. I want to live a long live but.. Of course I want to live.. But..

Now for the final touch, Musashi's father said, lighting a candle and slowly bringing it to the paper. *Dashes and snatches the paper from the man's hands* "Sto-Stop!" Everyone looked really shocked, but the death god semmed to relax a little. "I- I just feel really uneasy doing this. I'm really sorry!" I grabbed my bag and ran towards the death god. "I sorry.. I don't know why but.. Gah! Forget it. Can you get up?" I panicked over him. He slowly stood up but soon lost his balance. I quickly put my arm around him and helped him to the door. "A-Ayumi..? Who are you talking to? And why are you holding out your arm like that?" Ryuu's voice shook. "I'm really sorry guys.." I said guiltily and went out. But once we were out, the death god released himself from me and turned to face me. "Why did you stop him and help me instead? Have you forgotten I'm going to kill you?" He said, face full of confusion. "Talk when we're home." I said uneasily.

[Ayumi's home] I sat down on the bed and took a deep breath. "Okay. I don't know why but when he was going to light up the paper my heart just thumped really fast and I keep getting this uneasy feeling. Then my instincts told me to stop him, to snatch away that paper. Then.. Then.. You know the rest." I said in a really quick speed. He blinked and said, "Oh." And then hugged me. Or so I thought. I was wondering how long he wanted to hug me before he slipped and collapsed on my bed. "Ahh! Are you okay?" I panicked. "Hey," his sudden voice shocked me. "I want to try sleeping too. But I always end up failing." I laughed and said, "just count sheep. That's what I always do when I can't sleep. Like ; one sheep.. two sheep.. three sheep.. In your head. Try it." He closed back his eyes and lay limp. I laid down next to him (since it was my bed) and looked at him. Is he asleep? Such a pretty face.. His hair so silky, and both his hair and eyes so light-colored. It's like he's all pure and white.. Ah! "I guess I'll call you Shiro." I whispered. (Shiro means white in japanese.) Shiro opened his eyes and smiled. "Shiro.. I like that name." I blushed and covered myself with the blanket. Ouhgosh. Did he know I have been looking at him all this time? But.. I might have fallen for him.. No way! I'm inlove with Ryuu right? Right..? Had I change my feelings for him without knowing? Noooo! That can't be. But, I guess I have to confess to Ryuu as soon as possible..If not I really will...*Snooze..*

"Ayumi.. Hey you're be late sleepy head! ...WAKE UP!" I jumped awake, sitting up right. I looked around and noticed Shiro staring at me with the why-did-you-sit-up-all-of-the-sudden-? look. "Ahh.. Sorry Shiro-" I turned to look at my clock. "Gaaaahh! I'm late!" "Told ya. See you then." And disappeared. I ran all the way to school, but I sure am lucky I didn't miss any classes. On the way to class, I bumped into Ryuu. But, now it's my chance to tell him. "Um, Ryuu? Can you come over for a minute?" I kept myself from blushing too much. When I found a quiet enough place, I took a breath. "Ryuu.. Um.. I have liked you for a very long time so will you please please please go out with me?" I said through "as though I'm praying" hands. He looked startled for a moment and then said, "I'm sorry, Ayumi but, I already have someone in mind. I'm really sorry." He replied apologicly. I blushed to the roots of my hair, "it- it's okay! No hard feelings felt, Ryuu!" I ran away as fast as I could so he couldn't see that I was crying.

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SCREEEECHHH ! Wh-what was that? I looked around and saw a car stopped at the side of the road. Did somebody get hit? Then i noticed a cat lying on the patch of grass, it was blood smeared. It must have been hit by that car. How horrible.. That cat.. There's no saving the cat now.. Tears formed as I pitied the cat that was hit. Then i noticed the death god. He reached his hand out and tapped the cat's head, then, a glow of light appeared from it's head. He moved his hand and the light floated to the sky, before sparkling and disappearing.

When the death god turned to face me, I noticed he was crying. Wait.. Death gods can cry? I never knew that. He dried his tears with the sleeves of the shirt and sat down on the grass patch. I walked over, sat down next to him and asked, "are you okay?" He sniffed and replied, "I like cats." Then he sobbed. Awwww.. *tears forming from her eyes(crying in sympathy)* "Don't worry. The kitty was sparkling." He told me, as though trying to comfort himself rather than me. Then I asked for him name, but he said he didn't have any. I tried asking him about more things, hoping to know more about him. "We don't age nor die. And unlike humans, we don't get hungry or sleep." He said. "Then how old are you?" I asked him. "Alittle over 200 years." Whoa. That's long. "Then I'll give you a name. Hmm.. What should I name you?" I said. "Hey, have you forgotten about school?" He asked, as though trying to avoid that question. But I got caught. "Ahhhhh!! I completely forgot!" I hurriedly stood up and brushed the dirt from my clothes. Just as i turned, "Ayumi! I'll be looking forward to my name." He told me with a smile. I smiled back and ran to school.

Is he really a death god? Because.. I'm not scared of him at all. He even smiled.. And cried because he likes cats.. I don't really get it but, I can't.. dislike him.

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The next morning, I walked to school carrying alot of thoughts. Like, is the lead singer of LUMA really going to die today? What did that death god mean by he's going to take him? How am I going to confess to Ryuu that i have liked him since a long time? Ugh. My head is spinning. But i was interrupted by Mio, Miko and Yumi who were running towards me as though a maniac had been chasing them. "Ayuuumiiiii!!" They shouted together. "What what? Hey relax you guys! Breathe in.. And out.. Okay now tell me what's going on." I waited for their breathing to calm down before Yumi spoke, "The lead singer of LUMA died in an accident this morning! I couldn' believe it when my sister texted me. I was such a fan of him!" No way.. It's true! That means I'm not seeing things? That means that death god was for real? "Come on guys.. There may be some mistake. Right ?" I questioned on. "It's really really true! See for yourself, Ayumi!" Yumi said, flipping open her cell phone to show me the message her sister sent her.
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|Yumira♥
|---------------------------------- [ text message Yumi's sister sent to her]
| Big news, Yumi! Lead
| singer of LUMA died in
| an accident 2day!
|--------------END-------------
|___________________

"It's really true.." I said. That means.. I'll die in one month. "I- I think i need to go to the infirmary.." I wobbled my way to the infirmary, dumbfounded. I laid down on the bed, covering myself with the blanket. Does that mean I'm gonna die too? If that's true, then I wonder how I would die too. I'm really healthy, so I might get into an accident. I hope it won't hurt. But.. Why? Why me? Mom's gonna cry. Dad's gonna lose 10 pounds. I won't be able to see Mio or Miko anymore, or Ryuu.. I won't be able to see Ryuu anymore.. I sat up on the bed. I don't want that to happen! *Sniffs* Then i started crying. "Waahh! Uwaahh! Why must this happen to me? Out of all people.. Why me? Uuwahh!"

Then i heard the door open and abruptly wiped away my tears, but they kept falling. "Yo. Class is over.. Hey, why are you crying?" "Ryu.. Ryuu!" "Whoa!" I hugged Ryuu from the bed without thinking, I couldn't stand the thought of leaving him! "What? Did you have a nightmare or something?" Ryuu asked. "No.. I.." I began, but stopped when I noticed something, we're embracing each other! I abruptly pulled away from him, "S-Sorry! Y-Yeah. It was just a strange dream!" I staggered, my blush would have been bright red. Ryuu took my hand and squeezed it, as though trying to comfort me. I thought he was going to say something but i noticed the death god above the other unit, mouthing the words ; go for it! I screamed and pointed towards him, "Ryuu! He's there! He came back again! Can't you see him?!" My voice trembled as Ryuu looked around and then shook his head. "Opps. Got caught again." The death god said, "well, keep up the good work, you only have 29 days left. See you." He waved and then disappeared . "Ayumi? Hey Ayumi!" Ryuu shook me, but i didnt respond. I could'nt hear anything now. "Ayumi! Hello hello? What's wrong with you?" When i finally found my voice, I told Ryuu that I might die soon. His face was shocked, but it also seemed like he didn't believe me.

After I told him what happened yesterday, how the death god predicted that the lead singer of LUMA would die and he would take him, I thought Ryuu would think I'm crazy and head home. But instead of that, he helped to dry my tears and said he would take me home. When I asked him why he wanted to take me home, he just hushed me and said that he was worried for me. When we reached my house, he told me to call him if anything happens. I just can't believe it. I had never thought he would believe me. I thought he was going to call me a freak and leave me alone. "Ryuu.." I said, "thank-you. I was sure you would think I'm crazy but you listened to me and you believed me. That made me really happy." Oh gosh.. How embarrassing! "That's because it's you. Don't you get it?" He said, after seeing my confused expression. "See you tomorrow." He said with a smile and walked off.

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"Class dismiss." Our homeroom teacher finally announced. "Ahh! Finally over! I'm soooo tired." I stretched my arms. Ah! I almost forgot I had to help out at Mom's shop today! Oh gosh.. "Miko, Mio, sorry but i have to go now. I gotta help out at my Mom's shop. See you tomorrow 'kay?" "Sure! See you, Ayumi!" They both said. With a smile, i ran off.

"Ayumi, that girl.. she is so slow. She should just hurry up and confess to him already. I guess she can' help it. After all , she doesn't know she's going to die soon." This voice, I stepped on my brakes immediately, sounds a lot like the one i heard before. "Was that you who called me earlier?" I asked him. He looked really surprised, like i just shoot myself with a really loud gun. He glanced every direction before pointing to himself as in saying : me? Then i pointed back at him : you! His eyes widened in surprise and with a split second, jumped out of the window. Wait a minute, wait a minute! That was weird right?! That was definitely weird. What? Why? He jumped out? But.. Isn't this the third floor?

Then i screamed and fell to my knees. "Someone.. A.. A person just.." Tears started coming out. "Ayumi ..? What's wrong?" Only my eyes moved. "R- Ryuu..?" With a trembling finger, i pointed towards the window. "Someone.. Fell from here.. He fell out of the window!" Ryuu raised an eyebrow and told me, "there wasn't anybody there from the start, Ayumi ." I couldn't speak. I'm not seeing things now am I? Ryuu glanced out of the window and assured me, "there isn't anybody there. Ayumi, look." That's strange.. I.. "I can't get up." Ryuu sighed and pulled me up to the window. "See..?" He's right.. Not even a single drop of blood. But.. I saw him jump.. Then everything went black.

When i opened my eyes, I was back in my room. Had i fainted? That must have been a sight. "Ayumi? You're awake? I was so worried!" Mom exclaimed. "Sorry to make you worry Mom.. Ah ! What about work? I was suppose to help out today." I said. "It's okay. Oh yes, a boy named Ryuu gave you a piggy ride home. Along with Mio and Miko who helped to take over your job." No way.. Ryuu carried me home?! "Are you hungry, Ayumi?" Mom asked suddenly. "Y-Yeah, I guess. " I replied. "Come downstairs and eat, alright?" She said as she walked towards my room door. Then i saw him. That guy who jumped out of the window today. "Mom.. There's somebody beside u!" Mom looked around in shock. "Ayumi.. don't scare me like that! I'm going downstairs to make dinner.." *door closes* With an innocent look, he closed in. "W-Wha.. What do u want?" I stammered. "So it's true, you really can see me. Hmm.. What should i do? This is not good. This has never happened before. I guess i could tell her. But maybe I shouldn't.." *circling around the room* "Ah, to hell with it. I'll just say it." He look at me with the i'm-not-joking eyes. "Sorry but, you're gonna die in one month." What ? What did he just say? "Well, thats all. See ya." My eyes followed him as he walked towards my window and jumps out like what happened today. But, he's not joking, is he? Me? Dying in one month? No way, how could he be so sure?

I ran towards the window, just to see him floating down from my window. 'No time to fuss over whether he's floating or not.' I told myself. "Wait!" I called out to him. He stopped and look up at me. "What is it?" He asked. "Wh-What are you?" I took up the courage to ask. "A death god." He replied simply. "You're joking right? I'm not really going to die in one month, am.. I?" Tears pooling. "Do you know who the lead singer of LUMA is?" He asked suddenly. "Yes.." Wondering what does the lead singer of LUMA has to do with me dying in one month. "Well, he'll get into an accident tomorrow. And I'm gonna take him." Take him..? "You don't have to believe me. I'm telling you this because you can see me. Well then," he said with a smile. "Enjoy your youth." With that, he disappeared. In one month, I'm going to die.. And i haven't told Ryuu that i liked him yet! "Ayumi!! Dinner's ready!" Mom called. "Yeah, coming!"

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First, i set my alarm clock but for some reason it didnt go off. Then i failed a test that i was sure I'd aced. And after gym class, a bunch of flies made me their only target. "Now I'm starting to hear things?! Today is just.." I complained, "really ominous!! I'm feeling incredibly unlucky today!" "Actually, you always turn off your alarm clock when you're half asleep." Mio said. "You're also super-sweaty after gym classes 'cause you get so pumped up." Miko continued. "And you have never been smart..." "You get carried away so easily." They said together. But i knew it was different this time. I have never felt so.. so.. creeped out. This morning, i was sure i heard somebody calling me. It was pretty distant, but still not so far away ;

"Eh? Did somebody call me?" I asked Mio and Miko. "Nope." Mio replied. "Nopey." Miko replied, "maybe you had mistakened it for someone else's name." "Or.. You're hearing things!" Mio teased. But i was sure i heard it! And i was sure they should have heard it too. Unless i was really hearing things. Okay that sent a chill right down my spine.

"...yumi! Hey , Ayumi!" That sudden out-burst took me away from my thoughts with a jump. I looked up and saw Ryuu, the boy whom i have been crushing on, stood in front of me. "Y-Yeah?" I stammered. "What were you spacing out for?" Ryuu asked, but before i could even answer, he said, "could you spare me some money? I forgot to bring mine." I was so sure he was just getting an excuse. He takes money from me all the time! "This isn't just an excuse right?" I asked him, doubting. "But this time i really forgotten. Come on! I promise I'll return it." He confessed! I cant believe I was giving him money blindly all this time. "Sure you'll give it back?" Still doubting. "Yeah yeah. Break time's going to be over soon, Hurry!" *Sigh* I give up. His face always gives in. I handed him the money.. And he ran away. Oh great. Not even a 'thank-you'? But i soon took back my word as he turned back to thank me just as he reached the door.. with a smile. I burned right up my neck . Mio and Miko snickered . "So .. you're dream boy is Ryuu from class 2-1 eh? When will ever you confess to him? Christmas?" Miko said. My blush grew bright red. " I- I-" I was speechless. Is my face that readable? "Oh confess already! We've grown impatient!" Mio said, forever the clown. In my opinion anyway. "Oh shut-up." Blushing, I turned away from them and stared out at the window. But.. Should I?

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